Nail Rehab Update..

by · February 22, 2020

I’m learning to manage my anxiety. Baby steps, really.

It’s happening slowly, without being focused on anxiety, per se. One area I’m working on: finding new things to do when I’m tired and have what I guess is called “nervous energy.” 

Doing simple tasks that don’t hit that inevitable dead end of not having enough cognitive capacity to finish.. that frustrating end point.. or losing the capability of remembering what I’m doing, by dropping things, or messing up something important..

I’ve found crocheting is great, but I want to be able to crochet for a very long time (into the future) and not have my hands hurt the next day.. obviously a rheumatic response. Therefore, other forms of mind-calming activities I’ve started up are playing with watercolour painting and drawing with pencil on paper.. so much easier on my hands.

Talking about hands.. here’s a pic of my fingernails in current state. No more nervously chewing my fingers! Yay!

The acrylics are finally off and these are my real nails grown back. They are still quite tender and I have a hundred (well, 5) coats of shellac on them to help to keep them strong as they continue to heal.. I LOVE this beautiful shade of red.. so bright and well.. BRIGHT!

Maybe I’ll make a video of my efforts now that my fingernails are doing so much better. Do you think that would be a good idea? Me.. videotaping me.. doing my art therapy.. with my hands.. would you watch? Tell me what you think..

LOVE. ❤️

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Holding space for grief, heart wide open
mending brokenness with words, colour, texture
inspired in the twilight of our days on this land
not ours.
Welling up with gratitude and despair both
hope is but a glimmer, yet joy is trembling
bursting forth
as the birds sing and flowers blossom
may we take pleasure as we mourn.

Welcome

These days, we are making sense of things after climbing out of a deep sleep, post-pandemic.

Our bodies feel anxious about the rise of fascism and evidence of roiling climate crises at every turn.. and so, as we increase our conscious awareness, it’s important to increase connection, each in our own local communities and become fluent with our channels for mutual aid.

Attempting to maintain control through all this uncertainty is a normal response, though it’s likely to feel triggered and confused.. do relax and feel into whatever comes up, and know it is normal in urgent times like these.. reach out to loved ones, let them know they can count on you, and allow them to be there for you, too……

I’m over here in Vancouver Canada, picking up the pieces of my shattered life. I find it helpful to use writing (journaling) and making things, listening to the land and feeling into my ancestors and reclamation as therapy to work through (and hopefully beyond) post-concussion symptoms.

Thank you for visiting.

As always, I would love to hear from you.. the usual channels, or by email at hitrish @ gmail .com  ❤️ 

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